I know so many of you have questions regarding Paxton.  Saying goodbye this morning was one of the most heart wrenching things I’ve done in a long, long time.

April 8, 2010,  five week old Paxton came to live at our house.  His mama had given birth to 8 or 9 puppies.  I think they were up to their ears in puppies and were letting them go a little young.

I remember sitting on the ground to meet the puppies and Paxton walked up to me, parked himself in my lap and said, “You’re my person.”  He was right!  He came home with us that very day.

He was so teeny tiny!

He sure didn’t stay tiny for long!  HA!!!  That dog grew and grew and grew. I wasn’t surprised.  Both of his parents were at the home where we got him and they were both tall dogs.

Now, I like a big dog.  Actually, my personal preference is for a large dog.  I guess I figure people aren’t going to mess with me if they see a hefty pooch at the door?  It works!

The FedEx guy used to be terrified of Paxton….that is until one day the FedEx guy saw me trying to sweep the kitchen floor.  Paxton had decided that the broom must die and he was busy “killing” the broom while I was trying to sweep.  I looked up to see him laughing himself silly at my front door.  After that, he wasn’t afraid of Paxton anymore and they became good friends.

He loved the cows and would BEG to go visit the cows!

Last night was his last visit to the cows.  More on that later.

He hated storms!!!

He loved Charles the Kitten!

He LOVED Pink Puppy!!!

He got pink puppy back in the days when he was still destroying any toy he got.  Something about pink puppy….that was something special. He treasured pink puppy and barely destroyed if after close to 5 years.  That was one well loved toy.

He loved that silly traffic cone!  He especially loved it when it had Peanut Butter inside.

He was the side plank champ!  Nobody could rock a side plank like Paxton!!!

He liked to help MFH (My Favorite Husband) with his planks and then walk away when it was my turn.  Goofy puppy!!!

He loved going for walks with Kali and Castro.

He and Castro were BFF.  Seriously, BFF!!!

They were our nosy Neighborhood Watch Committee!  Not a thing got past those two.

Most of all, Paxton loved his Nutty Bars and neckties!  He’d get soooo bent out of shape if you took of his necktie.  He’d throw a major fit sometimes!!! He thought he looked spiffy….and of course, he did!

Don’t forget the Nutty Bars!!!

So, what happened to my pampered, necktie wearing pudgy pooch?


We noticed in November a few bumps on his legs.  They were marble sized to start off but quickly grew to be pretty good sized bumps!

At the time, Kali was super sick and we were dealing with her and finally had to put her down.  After Kali, we were able to turn our attention to Paxton’s bumps.  It’d only been about 2 weeks after noticing them so we figured they were cysts or something.

We had biopsies done 3 weeks ago, I think it was.  In the time between our initial vet appointment and the surgery, he had developed about a dozen more bumps.  Seeing at how many more there were and how fast they were growing, we were not surprised when the vet called and said they were malignant.

The vet said that it was aggressive and pretty much pointless to try to do any kind of treatment.  We agreed to keep an eye on him and when the time came, we’d say our goodbyes.  The vet gave us an estimated time of three months.

I was confident Paxton would be able to celebrate his 8th birthday on March 4.

The bumps kept growing fast and furiously.  We had to keep the cone of shame on Paxton because he was worrying the surgery sight and ripping out stitches.

To be honest, his major complaint with the cone of shame was he couldn’t wear a necktie!  Vain puppy!!!

Two days ago, I noticed Castro starting to distance himself from Paxton.  That was very unusual.  Those two are tighter than all get out.  I was concerned.  Looking back on it now, Castro knew the end was near. That poor kitty!!!  First his mama, Kali, and now Paxton~within 5 weeks of each other!  *He’s a very sad kitty at the moment*

Yesterday, Paxton was sitting in the driveway looking down the road towards the cows.  He gave me this pleading look that said, “Please!?!  Please can we go visit the cows?”

How could I say “No?”   *I want you to notice the large bump on the back of Paxton’s right front leg, the leg without the bandage on it.  We’ll come back to that shortly.

We walked slowly down to the cows.  His head was bobbing in pain but he was over the moon excited to visit those cows!!!

As we walked back to the house, he really struggled. It’s only a tenth of a mile from our house to the field but he was in a lot of pain.  We’d stop. I’d love on him, let him rest until finally we made it back to the house.

He didn’t drink anything…which was odd.  I offered him some of MFH’s fancy ice cream.  He turned it down.  VERY odd!

We had an early bedtime.

At 11:30 last night I woke up and looked at Paxton’s water dish.  I had filled it up around noon yesterday.  He hadn’t drank anything.  I couldn’t remember him eating anything after breakfast, either! He was shutting down.  That’s when I realized we would be making our last trip to the vet this morning.

I laid in bed and cried until 3:00am.

Paxton heard me crying and came to the bed and tried to comfort me.  He was giving me puppy kisses and everything.  He knew I was sad and wanted to make it better.  Darn that dog for being so awesome!!!

I finally fell asleep for about 2 hours when his heavy panting woke me up.

I rushed into the living room to discover he had gotten the cone of shame off and had tried to chew that tumor out of his leg~the bump I had asked you to notice in the last pic?

I felt terrible!!!  I shouldn’t have fallen asleep!!!  I should have been there so that wouldn’t have happened!!!

My poor pudgy pooch!!!


MFH found out there would be somebody at the vet’s office at 6:30am so Paxton and I got in the car~his last trip going bye-bye and drove over to the vet’s office.  We got there about ten minutes until 7:00.

The people were there but not the vet.  We had to wait until 8:00.

Paxton and I sat in the backseat of the car.  He was laying across my lap with pink puppy.  I loved him as much as absolutely possible during that last hour of his life.

The vet arrived.  We went in.

Paxton knew why we were there.  He was good with it.  He was ready.  He was content.

See, last night, after the cows, it was like he had checked the last item off his puppy bucketlist.  He was ready to go.

Together my pudgy pooch and I walked into the back room.  He laid down on the floor like a good boy.  He let the vet inject the medication, gave a little puppy sigh and was gone.

I’ve had LOTS of dogs in my life and have had to say goodbye more times that I have liked but this dog….he was special.

RIP my necktie wearing puppy!!!  I know you and Kali are kicking up in kitty and puppy heaven.  I’m so glad you’re not in pain anymore and I’m so very, very sorry I wasn’t awake to stop you from trying to remove your tumor this morning.  Please forgive me!!!  The vet promised to cremate you with pink puppy so you’ll have company on the other side. You’ll always hold the most special puppy place in my heart!

You and Kali keep each other company!!!







18 thoughts on “#MyDogWoreNeckties

  1. Orla Fitzpatrick

    Oh Paxton. What a lucky dog you were to be loved ALL of your life. And you never knew how many people around the world loved you too.
    Melinda, the ending you gave Paxton is a mark of the respect he was given all his life. You let him go when he needed to go. And I thank you for that. You didn’t baulk at the end and leave him to the vet. You both were by his side all his life. I’m so so sorry for your loss. But keep him in your memories, speak about him and Cali often and they are never truly gone. Thank you for loving them all. So many never have that. My heart goes out to you both. But I know you are the lucky ones really. You had Paxton in your lives. So many people don’t get to experience that sort of love.
    Big hugs and best wishes

  2. Shaun

    As I read this I kept looking over at my oldest Kia who is 7 and thinking one day I am gonna have to do this to you. I couldn’t help but to get tears. They are with us a short bit of time in our life but leave a lasting impact that will remain with us till we die. I am so sorry for your loss but I am glad you got to enjoy the years you had with him

  3. Chere' Hibbitts

    I cried reading this..i loved watching his adventures on Facebook. He was so adorable with the tie begging for Nutty bars. My thoughts are with your family and i hope you find comfort knowing he brought joy to many people!

  4. Bain

    Since my cat Professor Nick Sterling wears bow ties, I always felt a special love for sweet Paxton.

    Since I said goodbye to Mr. Potter, kitty love of my life, just over a year ago, my heart breaks for you having to say goodbye to Paxton. That dog scored a really, really good life with you. He chose the very best humans to be his humans. I’m certain he knew it, too.

    Thank you for sharing all the #MyDogWearsNeckties pictures and letting Paxton be a little part of my life, too.

  5. Ellie Hamilton

    Thank you for writing this, Melinda. It did me good to read it. I’m guessing it did you good to write it, too. 😢

  6. MiHyang Faulks

    I loved your precious loving Paxton! I was one of his biggest fan! I was so happy when I met you 2 years ago in Jackson, Mississippi! I been following you ever since in social media…. Remember I brought boxes of nutty bars at Mississippi marathon for your Paxton! Just want you to know Melinda… You are my Hero! You inspires me so much ! Also, best fur mommy in the world! Paxton is in heaven with my my 2 furs babies Louie and Alex …. Till we all meet again … Love you always…. MiHyang Faulks

  7. Christine Whitmore

    I don’t think I have cried like I did today for a puppy I never met. I always looked forward to Paxton’s photos and reading about his daily walks and begging for Nutty Bars. It was cute seeing him and Castro together.

    You and Chris loved him and Paxton knew this. He was also loved by many people around the world.

    He is not in pain and running free with Kali and visiting the cows in heaven.

    May he RIP. Prayers for you and Chris during this time. ❤

  8. Anonymous

    So sorry to hear Melinda,

    I know Paxton was so much more to you then a friend. He was family and that’s why it’s so hard to say goodbye. Just know that you and your husband did everything you could to keep him happy and suffer free in his final days.

    Your memories with Paxton will last forever.

    prayers & hugs of joy to celebrate his life.
    Troy F

  9. Lisa

    It was a joy to read about the best dressed pup, Paxton. I have been reading posts about Paxton posts ever since we became friends on Facebook. Special pups leave indelible marks in our hearts when they have to leave us, but Kali and Paxton cannot wait to see you again…maybe they are playing with Kodi and Daisy on the bridge, where all of our beloved ones are waiting for all of us without pain. Hugs to you. I pray for your comfort.

  10. Renee Swan

    Beautifully, said Melinda. I’m so grateful that you shared him with us. Y’all remain in my thoughts and prayers!

  11. Holly

    Melinda, mfh and kitty. There are no words. I’ll shed some tears. Paxton was very special. The yellow cone. Pink puppy. Neckties. Covering up his food dish when he didn’t like what you gave him. You loved him so much and he had a great life. You made him so happy.

  12. Courtenay

    I’m crying hysterically. You have been in my thoughts all day. I can’t thank you enough for sharing your story (I can’t imagine that was easy, especially today), but most of all thank you for sharing him with all of us. Your love for Paxton was always overflowing and evident in every day. He was such a fortunate pup to have a loving Mama as you were graced with such a blessing in him as well. The way he took to your needs last night says so much. I’m praying for you. ❤️

  13. Darlene Jader Waters

    Dearest Melinda,

    My heart hurts for you as I finish reading. While there is a sympathy I can express for the loss you’ve suffered, I do understand it.

    I let my Bubba go more than 15 years ago, forced him to go because of someone else’s wishes. There isn’t a part of me now that doesn’t miss him like it was yesterday. It’s amazing the capacity for love our furry friends have for us, and we for them.

    I wish you the best in healing and holding dear Paxton close in your memory always.


  14. Eve-Marie Gilbert

    I’m crying as I’m reading this, Melinda. He brought so much love and joy to you. I’m feeling so much of your pain. He was such a special pup.
    RIP, Paxton. May you no longer wear the cone of shame. May you run and play, wear as many neck ties as you wish and have an endless supply of nutty bars.

  15. Kate

    I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is one of the hardest things ever; I remember a few years ago having to put our family dog down, and it was just awful. Praying for comfort in the days to come.

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